Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Day Nine

Day 9. A Picture Of The Person Who Has Gotten You Through The Most.

My sister. She's always been there for me. Sure we've had our fights and complaints about each other, but I know that I can always count on her to love me. One specific event comes to mind when I think about this. Right after I seperated from my ex, I was having a really rough time. Not the sad kind of rough, but I was just not a very happy person. I was angry with everyone, I didn't know what I was going to do or where I was going to go. My sister took me in and helped me get back on my feet. She didn't judge me, she was just there for me. This was just a small example. I love her very much and I don't know where I'd be without her. She is one of my greatest friends.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Day Eight

Day 9: A Picture That Makes You Laugh.

My silly husband. He always makes me laugh.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Day 7

I figure I should probably start this up again.
Day 7. A Picture Of Your Most Treasured Item.

I bet you are thinking that I'm going to say my son. That's not false, I love my son very much and he is definitely one of the things I'm most thankful for in life, but he is not an "item" so that's not my answer. If you look at the very bottom of the picture you will see that tiny band around my left ring finger. That is my most treasured item. It's not because of how much it cost or because the diamond is real, it's because of what it stands for. My marriage means more to me than I could express through words. It's the greatest feeling in the world having someone you can love and trust entirely, and knowing that they will be with you for eternity. I love that we have so much in common and that we both want the same things out of life. I'm so happy to have the life that I have and I know everything would be different had I never married Nathan.


So I can't decide if my mood recently is because of left over post pregnancy hormones or my birth control. I just hope and pray it is not just me. I swear I hate everyone, well most everyone. Okay, I wouldn't even go as far as to say the majority of people.. maybe just like half. I have really strong negative feelings toward people who really haven't done anything wrong. I can't help it, no matter how hard I try to shake it, I can't.
Example. Lately, I feel as though everyone is only looking at for themselves. And I realize it's a natural instict to put yourself before others, but I just can't understand how some people can be so selfish all the time. I especially hate it when people say they will do something and then when the time comes to get it done, they back down. It's like everyone is just letting me down over and over again. I really don't ask for much. Mostly, I just want the security of knowing that people will be there for me if needs be. Isn't that what everyone wants? It feels like the only person I can trust anymore is Nathan. Well okay and Jackie.
I guess I'm just an optimist. I always hope that people will be better than they really are. When will I learn?

Friday, May 6, 2011

RyanAir is dumb!

Yes, they have amazingly cheap tickets, but everything else about them is completely ridiculous. So today we were supposed to leave for Alghero, Italy. I was so excited. After last weekend this was something I really needed! I was looking forward to laying out on the beach for days and not worrying about anything. And everything came together so nicely. Our tickets were 12 euro a piece, we got a nice hotel for cheap. So then today we wake up and check in online. We had a hard time printing off our boarding passes, but finally we got it done. We were on our way to the airport and we were running a little bit late but it was okay because we had enough time to get to our flight. After literally jogging about a mile (long term parking was far away) we get to desk to check in. We show him our boarding passes and he tells us they are our return passes (the only ones we had). So finally he tells us he can print them off for us but they are going to be 40 euro a piece. Yea it was going to be 80 euro for TWO PIECES OF PAPER. Oh well, I didn't care as long as we were going to get onto our flight. So then he goes to print them off and says "you are checked in". Ummmm...... yes, yes we are! Okay so what would a normal airline do? Check you right there.. right? Ryanair is no normal airline. He tells us that since we are running late already that there is no way we can get onto this flight and directs us to a ticket help desk. Mind you this is still about 20 minutes before our plane was actually leaving. So everyone else goes ahead and goes to the flight and we go to the help desk. They tell us that you have to be checked in online 4 hours before your flight and not a minute later (we checked in 3 1/2 hours before our flight). So when we checked in it didn't process that we had checked in for our flight today, only for our returning flight on Monday.. which is why we only got our return boarding passes. So we are like "okay well what do we need to do to get onto this flight?". Nothing.. there was "nothing" they could do for us to leave today. The only thing we could do was to get on the flight for tomorrow night which was going to be 100 euro a piece. So with that we'd be getting into Italy tomorrow night, have all day Sunday and then leave Monday morning. It just wasn't worth it to spend 200 euro for just a day and a half. After we picked up Noah and got home we checked online to see how much it'd cost to buy a one way ticket for tomorrow but it'd only be like 20 euro cheaper so we decided to nix the whole thing. Instead, we are going in June for a week, and we are bringing Noah with us (it actually cost more for Noah to go than it did for both me and Nathan). That's how Ryanair gets you. Their tickets are really cheap but it costs an arm and a leg for anything extra. Our tickets were like 25 euro a piece and one bag for Noah cost 40 euro, not to mention it was 20 euro for him to go and another 20 euro for us to bring his car seat. Oh well, I'm just happy we are going. However, I am still in a foul mood, as I'm sure you can understand.
So Monday I went in for my breast consultation. It went great. We figured out how many cc's I'm going to get and we set a date for the surgery. :) June 20th. I cannot tell you how excited I am for this. Since I can remember I've been wanting this. I think I'll feel so much better about myself. It is one of the only things I'm self conscious about. There are a few down falls though. I won't be able to lift Noah for 3 weeks after and I have to wear a sports bra for 6 months. Also, I won't be able to get pregnant for up to 8 weeks. The last isn't so bad but we were going to start trying again in July-ish time frame. September isn't bad, that'll put them almost two years apart.
Noah is just non stop growing. In some ways I love how big and independent he is, but in others, I hate it. I remember the first time I held him, that first night with him. I didn't sleep the whole night because I was so worried something would happen and I wouldn't wake up. I remember when we brought him home from the hospital and how completely exhausted I was. I remember the first whole day he spent awake. Oh man, soon he's going to be crawling and walking and be all over the place. Lately we've been testing solid foods. I gave him noodles the other day. He loved them and did so well. He loves anything he can pick up and eat on his own. I started to tear up when we were leaving him today. I have never left him over night with anyone besides my mom.. and we were going to be leaving him for 3 nights. I'm so glad we decided to bring him with us next time!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

I love this, it makes me smile.

You Know You're A Military Spouse When..

1. You've moved at least once every three years.

2. You have enough Motrin in your house to supply a small nation. (Hahahaha…. Motrin is the medicinal equivalent of duct tape! Just ask any Military doctor!)

3. You know a lot of people from all over the world….literally!

4. You’ve lived all over the world.

5. Sad but true, you're used to losing touch with friends.

6. You refer to your friendships as “short-term relationships,” but we all know that they last a lifetime!

7. You don't flinch when going over tire shredders with your car on a daily basis.

8. You had to have a ration card to buy gas, coffee or alcohol.

9. You have been referred to on many occasions as “just the wife.” You’ve also perfected the “just the wife glare” that causes anyone who uses that term to backpedal rapidly.

10. You know the difference between an “airport” and a “terminal” and a “hospital” and a “clinic.”

11. You’ve engaged in at least one instance of all out warfare with Tricare.

12. You get mad when AAFES advertise their stuff like there's another place to buy it from.

13. You know that goodbye never gets easier.

14. You have moved your entire household…kids, pets, households goods…on your own while your husband is deployed/TDY/training.

15. You are fluent in acronyms….DFAS, TDY, MP, SF, DEROS, PCS, ETS, CC, VOQ, PQP, AEF, OPSEC, DSN, DENIF,OPR, EPR, SOS, ACSC, NCOIC, ATEC, AMC, IFE, FUBAR, CinC, ADP....and on and on…

16. You talk about your weekend trip to Tokyo or Paris the way other people talk about their weekend trip to the beach.

17. You know what your DEROS is.

18. You know what it feels like to put your tears last and the needs of your spouse and family first.

19. You have at least one room full of boxes that you just got too damn lazy to unpack.

20. You can say “hello,” “goodbye,” “thank you,” “please,” and “where is the bathroom” in five different languages.

21. You’ve referred to a TLF as “home”

22. You know the difference between BDUs and ACUs.

23. The Sandbox is not what your kids play in out back.

24. You can live…and function…in a house with no air conditioner.

25. You simultaneously love and hate AAFES…..not that you have much of a choice. The hate generally emerges when you wait in line 20+ minutes to pay an extra 16.5 cents per gallon for gas.

26. You have your husband’s social security number memorized, but have to look up your own.

27. You freeze when someone asks for your social security number. Once you recover from the shock, you ask them at least four times if they are REALLY SURE that they want YOUR social!

28. You know to stop and stand at attention when hearing the national anthem/Taps/Retreat even though you're standing in the middle of the commissary parking lot with ice cream and it is 95 degrees out.

29. You know to carry a coin with you at all times…..heck, you know what it means to get “coined!”

30. You have forgotten what a “normal” commercial looks like and can’t remember the last time you’ve seen a movie preview!

31. All your furniture has multiple colors of moving stickers on it. (Ha Ha and you get emotional thinking of which move correlates to which sticker.)

32. Some of your boxes of stuff get shipped twice because you didn't unpack it before you moved again.

33. You're ecstatic when you go somewhere off base and can park super close to the building because there are no reserved parking lots other than handicap.

34. Lifestyles only come in two options: military or civilian.

35. You can't sleep as well if you don't hear airplanes.

36. When you here explosions go off, you just ignore them.

37. You've lived in the middle of nowhere.

38. You walk into the BX or Commissary and see at least 10 people you know from school, work, etc. and at least 20 others you know by sight.

39. You have ever stayed up until 5 a.m. the night before your husband home, frantically cleaning the house so it looks like you’ve been maintaining it the entire time they were gone…despite knowing that within 10 seconds of him walking in the door, the house will look even worse than before!

40. You can tell the difference between and F-15, F-16, A-10, F-18, F-22, etc. as well as the difference between a KC-10, KC-135, C-17, C-5, C-130 etc. Sometimes you can even identify them by sound, which is just scary.

41. You have ever moved to a new base and had your husband deploy a week later.

42. You are able to start over, anywhere at any time in a place where you don’t know anyone.

43. You have ever had to stifle the urge to roll your eyes and snicker aloud when you hear a military leader talk about “family first.”

44. You have ever had to explain to your non-military friends what it means to live on the economy

45. You have a Home of Record that may be thousands of miles away from your current home.

46. You don’t think anything of it when driving by 4+ men holding machine guns.

47. You know people by their last names first…..and maybe eventually learn their first names!

48. You say things like “back in the States” and “State-side”

49. You’ve been called “ma’am” by people twice your age.

50. Your spouse has been gone for more than half your marriage.

51. The thought of not having an ID card sends you into a full-fledged panic attack!

52. You live on your own and by yourself more after you're married than before you were married.

53. You know that a 2 month separation IS short, no matter what your civilian friends say.

54. You don't bat an eyelash at 22:45 and 0300 duty times.

55. You have been asked to stop talking in acronyms and translate it all to English.

56. You've done more oil changes than your spouse, and even when your husband is home the mechanic asks to speak with you.

57. Someone with a machine gun asks to see your ID before you enter the grocery store (or as the case is over here, the hospital)!

58. You would rather sell your soul than go to the commissary on paydays!

59. If the thought of another deployment makes you cringe….but you know you will have to suck it up and that you will be okay because you always are.

60. If you've spent almost all the holidays in any given year without your spouse.

61. You remember milestones by duty stations

62. You pay $35 to have a baby

63. You tell people that ask that he's 'only' been gone a month.

64. You want to roll your eyes (and sometimes you do!) when you hear someone complain that they "haven't seen my boyfriend/girlfriend or hubby/wife in a couple days!" (AMEN!!!)

65. Your neighbors and sometimes co-workers know you well but have never seen your spouse.

66. The radiator blows up on the car, the toilet overflows somebody gets sick, and the washing machine dies within 12 hours of your spouse leaving for yet another TDY/deployment

67. You aren’t surprised when you get four days’ notice for a four-month deployment and 24 hours for a three week TDY.

68. You have spent consecutive wedding anniversaries apart.

69. You tell the mover the correct way to pack moving boxes.

70. You know what “Last four?” means.

71. You know that the military breeds two things: alcoholism and children.

72. You know that only other military spouses will understand this.

73. You laughed hysterically and nodded the entire time you were reading this.

74. You know that “dependent” means anything but!!!